Hi guys,
It has been really long time ever since I last updated my blog. It has been a month I guess. Well there are good reasons behind this.
Firstly, I’ve to tell the truth here.... I am very upset about the O-level results that I actually got last Jan. I had never imagined myself getting those horrible scores actually. It is really sad and frustrating. This is one of the reasons why I had no mood to post anything much. What is there to post anyways? There has been nothing, let me repeat NOTHING happening in my life. Everything is not happening to what I always dreamed of. After all these days of not sleeping well, I finally realised why I can’t really get some sleep nowadays. It is basically because I am damn guilty on not placing in my utmost effort on my Os. I could have done more. When I say more here, it means lots more...
Well, I am sad in one side because those marks aren’t mine and I am frustrated because I could and CAN have done better then what I have gotten. From the start I knew that I have not placed any hard effort in my studies. ):
And why is it that I didn’t change my attitude towards my studies... It has only one good reason for it and its called being lazy! I thought people math and science but I had never bothered to study. In the last three months before the Os, I remember that I did push myself hard on Chemistry and Physics. But it was nowhere near my best effort still. As for my math, I was being too overconfidence I guess. I knew that I was just giving myself excuses such as “Oh, I’m feeling so depressed” and all kind of other craps. Now I just feel that I could change everything but it is just too late for my Os.
But there is a reason for everything that happens in my life. I must start my poly life in proper. So many things that I dream off doing in poly and this time round, I don’t care what it is going to take to achieve them. I don’t care even if I am about to give myself a mental stress but if that takes to get what I am dreaming off, so be it. I want to be what I always wanted to be... I had enough of losing things over my laziness just like that. I had not been a strong fighter over this issue before but it is about time to wake up and go for it!
For my friends who are going to do the Os this yr... I am really hoping that you don’t do the same stupid mistake that I have done... 1. Being lazy, 2. Never studied, 3. Never worked for what I wanted but always just sat and wished for it to happen.
That’s all for now...
With the flame of anger to achieve what I want,
Veeknesh (:
It’s a crazy, crazy world...
Where worry is the root of all troubles...
That’s why we believe – only the silly worry.
Life is a chewing gum, just keep chewing...
Life’s a hand pump, just keep pumping...
Squeeze the last drop out of life...
And leave the worrying to the silly...
There’s no tax on happiness...
So forget all worries, show some heart...
No mansion and no money, not even your beauty is going to grave with you...
So dump the thoughts...
Gobble up all your joys with your both hands, the right and the left!
So forget your worries and show some heart...
Let your eyes give it all away...
When you are with someone special,
Play games and you will be exposed by the drumbeat of your heart...
God will watch out for you no matter where you are...
If you go along with your instinct...
So forget all worries and show some heart!
This is not by me... It is from a song and I felt that it is worth to translate and put it up for some ppl whom worry abt their looks and worry too much abt other things (:
Hey guys....
It has been abt a month that I’ve not updated my blog. I’m sorry for that. It’s just that in my current life, so many things have messed it up. Most of u guys know that I went for a surgery last month but unfortunately my wound got infected so I had to get admitted again in hospital. It is really sickening to be in hospital u know! I was like been there for abt two to three weeks alr. One thing was beneficial for me though, I kinda lost 3 kg and I hope that I don gain it back within this 3 weeks that I am told to rest. People LISTEN UP HERE!!!! I am after my surgery, so pls try to understand that I would not be able to attend any outing till this upcoming last week of jan 2010. Btw I don’t have any much of things to post abt so yeah! I’ll be ending my post here abt me...
I’ll like to dedicate this special post to people who have no life and got stuck with their love stories “specially for AJR” Hope you read it and understand... I’m not advising but just giving my point of view in this love matter.
Well don’t want to boast abt myself so.... People call me gd at giving love advise and I really hope that this would be a good one. But sadly I’ve still no galfriend la... Hehe...
[WARNING: This post is not meant to offend anyone. So if u feel guilty that means that u belong to this grp of people who have to understand and learn how to know who really loves u from the bottom of their heart!]
There are 3 main different types of love in this world. Not just humans but even animals do love. The difference between animal’s love and a human’s love is from what I believe – feelings. Only humans can feel love for someone. Some people in this world will always have the tendency to kinda get the wrong feelings towards someone who shows care and concern and would believe that it’s LOVE! Usually, the grp of ppl who falls in this category are teenagers.
What a mother shows her child is also known as love and what a friend shows another is also love. But when something that can never be described and if you feel that the person is somewhat special to you, now that is called love. Love should not be forced on someone and come on, duh... How can someone special to you be hurt by you? Sadly some of us do that without realising it.
The greatest love that can never be denied by anyone is mother’s love. Yes, there are mothers whom do not understand their child’s feelings but have you ever thought it the other way? Maybe it’s just that your mum does not know how to really express her love on you? A mother’s love can be recognised only when you are really lacking of someone and feeling all alone in this world. Mother is the only person in this world that never forgets her child no matter how much YOU HAVE MADE HER TO HATE YOU. Now, something that all teenagers hate is nagging... Trust me, I totally hate it. But how many of us do realise that is where your mum really shows her concern on u?
Next, this is the complicated part and I hope that I do deliver my thoughts in an understanding manner (: Teens nowadays do a slight mistake on getting confused between a friendship love and a true love. Well simply to say, true love must come from both parties and one must feel comfortable to be with another. Someone that you really can trust, someone that you really care for and never to hurt them and this is especially for guys.... ‘If you really feel that the gal that u like can replace your mum’s love....” Now that is the meaning of love. A girl that you chose mustn’t be someone to just have sex with or to show how better you can treat a girl compared to your friend! “Sorry for being very straight forward” but common that is what’s happening in life. Don you agree? Lols!
Two last advises before I end this here... “If you do love someone that should mean you can never hurt that person and try doing this – Make her happy, even if it is giving up your love on her to another guy that she loves which makes her happy, trust me you will find your happiness in that too.” And for my last advise... “In the same time, if you feel that he/she does not worth sharing and giving your love. Then don’t. Just throw it away and move on (:”
Thanks for reading this damn love boring staff... If you have any comments do give it on my taggy or u can msn me (:
TC!
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